I just took the Acet.

The moment I got out of the room, I thought I would at least pass the test, rather than get in the top 15%. Later on that day, I found out I screwed up a lot more than I thought I did in the test. . . . . stupid logical reasoning and numerical reasoning. . . .

Oh well, that's another school I failed.
I'm not sure how I did in my UPCAT, but it doesn't matter since I made an error in my application form and it's too late to fix it :sigh:

. . . anyway, my priority school is UST and I'll probably take the test in December since the test in October is in the middle of my quarterly exams. . .


Hm. . This kinda makes me start to think about these entrance exams. What are they suppose to do anyway? See if you're smart enough to get into their school? Weed out the weak, the stupid? Isn't that like looking down on them in a way? I don't know. . .

I hate it how they make it seem that, the only way to a good future is through those top schools. . .

What if you're not smart enough? Are you denied of your future? Are you denied of your dreams? Are you denied your chance for the life you've always wanted?

Well I don't believe it prevents those things from happening, but it's just that I hate the way society makes it seems so.


. . . I don't believe I'm smart, academically anyway. I'm probably average at most.
The reason why I get good grades or at least decent grades at school is because I just learn what I need to learn in order to pass.

It also makes me think of the meaning of intelligence. What is intelligence anyway? There have been studies of multiple types of intelligence such as verbal intelligence, athletic intelligence, social intelligence, mathematical intelligence and etc.

Schools and exams narrowly measure one's intelligence. How can they possibly measure one's intelligence through a couple of exams? Society has this bias to those who have high IQs. Isn't the IQ just one type of intelligence? Why do they praise those people with high IQs so much?

:sigh: sorry, I don't want to dwell too much on that topic.


I'm just scared.

All I want to do is serve people (hopefully through being a doctor).

Will they deny me of that dream just because of some test?
I know it's supposed to see if I'm capable of understanding their lessons so that I'll be able to hold the responsibility of being a doctor.

I dunno . . .

Isn't there more than one way to live? More than one way to serve others?
I'm sure there is. . .

But why does society have to look down upon the simple?